I thought I was running out of things to write, but apparently writing about what makes me angry is kind of working? I was going to turn this into a rant, but I'd rather not spread negativity. It's not that interesting anyway.
I saw two videos today that made me very, very happy.
One is from ashow with zefrank. It shouldn't be any surprise that his words are wise, comforting, and timely because they always are. I'm suspicious sometimes that he's making videos for just me. His latest video was on "Dealing with Rejection" which is big for me right now. I'm applying to college and it's scary and ;alkdfja;lskjf and sure I haven't gotten rejected yet but it's this scary possible reality that I feel like I have to deal with. The stuff he said was just... chock full of good and wise and helpful :)
Then, Joe Bereta from SourceFed said some really beautiful things about responding to the Newtown tragedy. And I just think you should give it a watch.
I'm officially doing the scariest thing in my life. My inbox just dinged because I have a new email. In all likelihood, it's the cast list for my high school's musical. WOW ;alkfj;a sdflk I don't know why I'm not clicking it. My heart is actually racing right now. My hands are shaking. My body is responding faster than my mind can.
The thing is, I think I know what it says. I'm not unhappy with the result I think it is, far from it. But leaving it this way, leaving it unread preserves the possibility of it all. It means anything could happen. I still could get cast in any part.
It reminds me of the end of the The Great Gatsby, which I reread for class a few hours ago. Gatsby had only his dreams, and even when he achieved them it was empty. Having Daisy couldn't compare to the overwhelming wanting and not-knowing of not yet having her.
Not knowing the castlist is better than knowing, isn't it?
SCREW IT I'M LOOKING GOOD BYE FOR TODAY
oh wait I can just tell you what happens before I post this.
Silly me.
Or shall I leave you in suspense??
(like you care)
Or maybe you do. And you're drowning in antici-
YOU ARE A CRUEL MISTRESS OF TEMPTATION. ASDFGHJKL DYING.
ReplyDeleteNo, but I hope you are happy with casting, if not now, then eventually.
Ze's words. Nuff said.
Hi Abby it's Colin! Good luck with casting! I know that you will do great. Suspense is sometimes a good thing because it's an experience if you know what i mean. Well anyway good luck!
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